I have thought about not writing this entry and just pretending that none of it happened. The past two weeks have been full of ups and downs. Brandon and I celebrated our seven year anniversary on the 14th. I am not sure if I should use the word celebrated. In fact I think we are going to start pretending the day doesn't exist. As some of you already know, on our five year anniversary we went to find out if Carter would be a boy or girl. We left the office that day finding out that Carter would be born with a very rare birth defect. So rare that no one in the office even knew the name of it! We were devestated, heartbroken and hurt. I ended up having an amniocentesis and was put on bedrest for the rest of the day.
This year we celebrated our anniversary by moving unexpectedly. Brandon found some issues with our home that required us to move immediately. We are very fortunate that my Mom and Dad allowed us to move in with them. God has already opened up new doors and we hope to move into our new home sometime in July.
You really never know what life is going to give you. God really knows how to place events. The night before the pep rally I spent packing and moving all of our stuff to my parents. Moving not because we wanted to, but because we had to. Brandon and I both felt like complete failures, not because the move was due to anything we had done, but because we were basically homeless. I think I spent most of the night crying and rocking Carter. Carter does not do well with change and will not sleep unless he is at home.
The day of the pep rally Brandon woke up and read his daily devotional like he always does. It read, Thank me for your problems. As soon as your mind gets snagged on a difficulty, bring it to Me with thanksgiving. Then ask Me to show you My way to handle the situation. The very act of thanking Me releases your mind from it's negative focus. As you turn your attention to Me, the problem fades in significance and loses its power to trip you up. Together we can deal with the situation, either facing it head-on or putting it aside for later consideration. I told you this book was written for us! Here we are exhausted and basically homeless and an entire school desides to have a pep rally for my son! The timing of the pep rally was perfect! God knew we needed this and it made us realize that everything was going to be ok. When Brandon spoke at the end of the pep rally and told everyone how much it meant to us, he really meant it. We needed to feel all of the love and support that we felt on that day. We honestly NEEDED it!
Oficially wearing shorts and a shirt for the first time!
And....Here he is WALKING!!!
You and your husband are amazing people. God bless you both and Carter too. You are so right - God takes such good care of us. Just when we need something, some place or someone - He sends them.
ReplyDeleteSharon Shepherd (Shea's mother)
Hey, Meagan. It is so good to "hear" from you and "see" Sweet Carter! I'm sorry for all the rotten stuff the past month has brought you with your home and the need to move but just look at all the blessings! The celebrations of Carter at the pep rally and "Carter Day" and he is WALKING!!! It sure does put things in prespective, doesn't it? God has a funny way sometimes of reminding us just how much He loves us....even when times are bad.
ReplyDeleteAlways, always mindful of you and praying for your darling boy! Love and prayers,
Shea
I really loved reading your blog..May you have happiness, and may you find it making one another happy.....
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