I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Psalm 139:14

Love each day..

Having Carter has changed my life drastically.  Most of you probably don't know that I hold Carter most of the night and sleep. Yes, you read it right I hold him. He is just a little rotten. We used to always say we wouldn't spoil our kids, but now we thank God each and every day for the opportunity to spoil and make this boy as rotten as possible.

Before Carter was born we were told how tough it would be. That there is a much higher divorce rate in couples with special needs children(I still have a hard time with the idea that Carter has special needs). I am here to say that the word tough is an understatement! The worst pain in the world is for your child to be hurting and yelling out mama, knowing there is not a thing in this world you can do. It's not only a mental, but physical pain. Pain that makes you sick to your stomach. Those are the times I would like to do more than spit on the devil. They are the times I want to scream, yell, and curse. Although, I have learned over the past few months it does no good. I think it just gives the devil another opportunity to creep into your life. I have learned more self control. I have learned to breathe and say a prayer. A prayer where I specifically ask God for help. Ask him for what it is Carter's little body needs. The hardest part of all of this is that Carter is 100% neurologically normal. He is a normal 17 month old trapped into a not so normal body. he is not at the age where he understands what is going on, but he recognizes where he's at.

Over the past 17 months Carter's journey has taken us places we never thought we would go. It has allowed us to feel feelings we never knew existed. It has shaken us to our core. It has taught us to love one another in ways we never did before. It has taught us to rely on Jesus more than we ever knew was possible, but most of all it has shown us the power of our almighty God. He is an awesome God. He created Carter perfectly and one day his little body will catch up.  We are constantly adding new experiences to this journey and we are about to add many more.  We hope to travel to Cincinnati Children's Hospital later this week or next week.  Our surgeon is currently working with them doing all of the preliminary procedures.  We are expecting to do a medical transfer and I have to say we are looking forward to it.  We are completely ready to figure out what is going on with Carter.  There are so many unanswered questions and things we do not understand right now.  We are thriving knowing God created Carter just the way he is and he knows exactly what he needs.  We are extremely thankful Carter is doing so much better as far as pain is concerned.  I am asking for all of you to continue to pray for Carter.  Pray for wisdom for all of his care givers and guidance for Brandon and I.  Although we may not always understand, we know his plan is perfect.  To him be the glory!


  1. I always love seeing this child's smile.And you are so right about God knows what Carter needs.In the meantime we will keep praying for you all!!
    Sending love from Lenoir City

  2. He looks so good today! His little smile is so precious. As you said God has a plan for Carter and He is there in the midst of everything. I hope the medical transfer comes through quickly and you'll get some answers and hopefully solutions to help Carter. As I lay my head down at night I lift up a prayer for Carter, you-(Megan) and Brandon. God has great things in store for all of you. Love to all

  3. I hope you know y'all are constantly in my prayers. Even at times that one of you just pops into my head for a minute, just the thought, makes me stop and whisper a prayer. Many times I don't even know exactly what I'm praying for other than peace, comfort, and God's will in your lives. His plans are so much greater than ours. I love all three of you so much. Blessings to you all, Deanna, Marty, Houston, and Hannah

  4. So glad to see his smiling, sweet face! He is adorable. You are such a wonderful mom. He is so lucky to have both ou and Brandon. KEEP THE FAITH! Carter is changing people; showing us all that life is so dear and precious and reminding us of God's goodness and faithfulness. Thank you for lettingus share Carter with you!

    As much as I pray for Carter, I pray for you and Brandon too. I know how worried you are and I know you are both physically, emotionally and physically exhausted. Find rest and peace in knowing how loved you are and how much we are praying.

    God bless!!